just focus.

today.

i woke up after a very exhausting week so far. my back ached some. i was hungry and roamed into the kitchen, too lazy to make food, so I chugged some milk.

unhappy.

i then got online. the internet connection was fading in and out. made me so mad.

as i try to print of directions to MVNU this weekend. i think of all the places i need to go and all the things i need to do before leaving. my wife rushes out the door on her way to work, which can be very stressful. i then make a list of everything that needs done. why is my life so hectic? gotta run here and there and here and there.. to the bank, get some food, grocery store, practice piano, pack, yadda yadda yadda... I went to Aldi's to spend more money on food.. all my groceries started dropping out of my box in the parking lot because i didn't have a stupid quarter for a buggy.. some guy almost hit me so I rolled down my window and yelled at him on my way home...

STOP. rewind.

I woke up in comfortable bed with fresh clean linens, next to my amazingly gorgeous wife. we talked a little before she bathed in fresh water put on clean clothes and makeup and left for her job in her car. i slowly got up. went into the kitchen and had something to eat/drink. i proceed to our living room and print off some free KFC coupons on the computer. I also put on some fresh clothes and prepared for my day. I started to pack some in my new suitcase bag I never used yet (we got for our wedding). I then drove to the bank in my car. i cashed the check for our quizzers this weekend in Mount Vernon. I then went to KFC and had a free lunch. It was pretty good too! I then drove to Aldi's to pick up some snacks for the weekend. I had some trouble in the parking lot because I never carry cash on me. I think my plastic card is so much easier, I hate to be burdened with carrying change one me, c'mon now. As I pulled out of the parking lot, another driver was driving carelessly, and i yelled... what am i doing???

we as a nation are so blessed and forget it all.

we are so dumb. i thank God for the reminder of how stupid we can be.

we are so blessed and fortunate and yet we think we are being pissed on by the world. i was so mad at myself for always forgetting. life can make you so busy you forget. you forget how fortunate you are. how God has blessed you- not because you deserve it!

there are thousands and millions of people around the world suffering. SUFFERING. SUFFERING!

we as a nation have it too easy. i wish life was harder. we take everything... EVERYTHING we have to lightly.

today is the national day of prayer. i thought about praying 4 or 5 times so far today... did i???

today i am going to just pray in thanksgiving! i am so thankful and i hope you realize it too.

I AM SO THANKFUL.

THANK YOU.